Camp Royal Day 4 - Leaders of the World

 (posted 2010-07-09)

2010-06-16 12:31

Chau is giving us the gift of silence.  Of course, it is not dead silent as in there are no sounds going on.  She's trying - or no - COMMITTING to give us time to appreciate the gift of food from the universe.  Through 10 minutes of silence.  Since I don't really feel comfortable eating in this silence - I decided to start writing.  The silence period is over; everyone is hopefully more mindful of their actions.

2010-06-16 23:39

Alright.  I need to distance myself from people a bit today, at least for the night.  I've gone through several totally different experiences today that are challenging my mind, body and, well, spirit.  As I reflect, I am going to make sure I filter out the "distractions" of my platform.  Once frustrated, Number 4 people totally distance themselves from the rest of society.

When I woke up this morning, I felt tense and forced, and no longer appreciative of being at camp so much.  And really, once I figured out some kind of routine I get totally bored instantly, even if the day is full of excitement.  I dont' know, the camp meals, the bells, the time of the speakers, the comedy (heh, skits), and well, even this journaling.  Developing my mind and personality, I am obviously in a time of struggle.  Figuring myself for who I want to be.

So the speaker for today was Chau.  It is a bit amusing and intellectually stimulating to have her speak to ht ecamp.  [She's] Totally balanced in all aspects of life, and if not, pretty close there, kinda like approaching a limit.  It is nice releasing stress, but of course, there's always learning her techniques for living life.

However, after that, I listened to a song put together by Chau and her gang.  I have to say music is totally my thing.  I haven't heard anything so beautiful in a long time I nearly cried giving a standing ovation to the song.  This is where composition comes later.  This experience with Chau challenged my creative mind.

Just before lunch time I had to go help set up.  Yeah, the quiet time was pretty darn amusing.  Appreciating the sounds of food being served.

After lunch, I got back to the platform to get my pen and use the toilet, etc.  I managed to attempt running all the way up to the theater.  It didn't work.  I ran out of breath halfway up.  Here, I managed to challenge my body.

After Chau's second session, we began to find people nearby us for the service project.  It made me realize some leaders are totally more ambitions than others.  [The] Group I'm in looks nice.  And yeah,we all [are] no more accountable for the project than each other, but some people definitely have a lot more experience.  Whatever it is I'm look[ing] for, I don't know.  Mental Challenge here: working with others/people skills.

As I walked down towards the piano area, I had no idea that I would embark on a pretty darn ambitions thing.  I managed [to] scribble out some music as er, Steven and Young were working on the guitar stuff.  Yeah, that would be the music a few pages back [in the notebook].  Mental Challenge here: Creativity.

Come dinner time.  New rule for the Pines: drinks must be consumed by using the non-dominant hand and double tapping on the table.  Mental Challenge: Awareness and Cunningness.  I kept the glass empty and ate with only the left hand, in order to eliminate one possibility.

After dinner...tried to compose more.  Sat [at] a table and guy joined me  Had a down to earth and real conversation.  Mental Challenge: there being a guy to talk to and listen to.

Still later, pleasing people with some music on the piano.  Either way, adapting myself so much is getting a bit confusing.

And lastly, as I have done for quite a while...filter out the "boys will be boys" conversations among my platform and focusing on writing.  Mental Challenge: Being a number 4 person - secluded.

And now, my challenge is to totally sleep.